Monday, October 17, 2011

... to kill your love

I left...
It happened so quickly that i didn't even realize what i was doing. I told you i wanna end that game and you didn't even realize that I was waiting for something else. I wanted you to argue, i wanted you to beg me to stay, to yell at me and get mad about my choice.
I wanted you to prove me that my decision was wrong. But instead, you did just nothing. You did nothing to hold me back.
I was amazed at your calmness, i was shocked by your reaction, but there was nothing i could do. And maybe i truly decided to leave you right at that second, when i saw no care in your eyes.
I got lost in my own game so easily. I had a feeling like it was you who was leaving...
And now after so many years...
No, i don't miss you, i miss the friend that i lost that day. And we both knew i was never in love with you, yet i loved you so much and still do. Just our loves were different from each other, we never wanted the same and non of us was trying to give up, until one day...

I sacrificed my own love in order to kill yours.



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